Kae Geneciran, Little Whispers

Not Now

First Reading
NM 24:2-7, 15-17A

When Balaam raised his eyes and saw Israel encamped, tribe by tribe,
the spirit of God came upon him,
and he gave voice to his oracle:

The utterance of Balaam, son of Beor,
the utterance of a man whose eye is true,
The utterance of one who hears what God says,
and knows what the Most High knows,
Of one who sees what the Almighty sees,
enraptured, and with eyes unveiled:
How goodly are your tents, O Jacob;
your encampments, O Israel!
They are like gardens beside a stream,
like the cedars planted by the LORD.
His wells shall yield free-flowing waters,
he shall have the sea within reach;
His king shall rise higher,
and his royalty shall be exalted.

Then Balaam gave voice to his oracle:

The utterance of Balaam, son of Beor,
the utterance of the man whose eye is true,
The utterance of one who hears what God says,
and knows what the Most High knows,
Of one who sees what the Almighty sees,
enraptured, and with eyes unveiled.
I see him, though not now;
I behold him, though not near:
A star shall advance from Jacob,
and a staff shall rise from Israel.

Responsorial Psalm
PS 25:4-5AB, 6 AND 7BC, 8-9
R. (4) Teach me your ways, O Lord.

Your ways, O LORD, make known to me;
teach me your paths,
Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my savior.
R. Teach me your ways, O Lord.
Remember that your compassion, O LORD,
and your kindness are from of old.
In your kindness remember me,
because of your goodness, O LORD.
R. Teach me your ways, O Lord.
Good and upright is the LORD;
thus he shows sinners the way.
He guides the humble to justice,
he teaches the humble his way.
R. Teach me your ways, O Lord.

Gospel
MT 21:23-27

When Jesus had come into the temple area,
the chief priests and the elders of the people approached him
as he was teaching and said,
“By what authority are you doing these things?
And who gave you this authority?”
Jesus said to them in reply,
“I shall ask you one question, and if you answer it for me,
then I shall tell you by what authority I do these things.
Where was John’s baptism from?
Was it of heavenly or of human origin?”
They discussed this among themselves and said,
“If we say ‘Of heavenly origin,’ he will say to us,
‘Then why did you not believe him?’
But if we say, ‘Of human origin,’ we fear the crowd,
for they all regard John as a prophet.”
So they said to Jesus in reply, “We do not know.”
He himself said to them,
“Neither shall I tell you by what authority I do these things.”


exams

“I see him, though not now…” (Numbers 24:17)

REFLECTION
The end of 2015 is fast-approaching and looking back, this year has been a year of breakthroughs. This year has also been a test of faith for me.

I left my dream university with no certainty of getting into a new one to pursue the program I really want only to find out that the program I want is not offered for transferees in the universities of my choice. It was truly heartbreaking for I had no school anymore to go back to. I had no choice but to hold on to the Lord’s plan for my life. I planned to take a different program first then just shift to the program I want and so I applied for two universities. Two weeks into my application, one university said that the slots left for transferees were already full so I only had one university left, one chance. I took the exam on the other university and it was the most terrifying 10 days of my life as I waited for the results. If I don’t pass this, I will have to stop for a term because I have no school. Imagine the horror I felt! Regrets came over me as well as fear and doubts. I had no choice but to surrender and trust in the Lord and his plans for me. Nearing to the day the results will come out, I was more relaxed and was ready to accept whatever the results was. Even though I don’t see the road ahead or the things that will happen during that time, I chose to stay calm in the presence of the Lord.

By God’s grace, I passed and am currently studying in that university. The fear of having no friends and having a hard time adjusting academically also went away for the Lord blessed me and surrounded me with new friends and with wisdom and strength to conquer the challenges in my academic life on my new school. Although I am still not in the program I want, I am now more confident and relaxed in Jesus’ name, continuously praying and working hard to get there.

The prophets in the Bible believed that a Savior will come even though they didn’t see Him. True enough, our Messiah, our Savior; Jesus Christ did come to save them and us all. Today, we are reminded that even though we don’t see the end of the road we are in, we must be patient and believe that all things will work together for our own good for our Savior will never abandon us and bring us to a place to harm us. Even though some things in our lives are scary and uncertain, we must have faith that our Savior put us there for a reason and that reason is to give us a happier and better life.

Prayer
Jesus, even though sometimes I get scared because I don’t see the plans You have for me, may I never lose faith in You and that may my faith grow stronger every single day.

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